INDIFFERENT OR CONTENT

I have been bothered by a state of indifference.
Usually I over care about absolutely everything.
I may have gone numb from a year of drama.
New life, many deaths and big events and health threats
Here I sit
Nothing to be done about any of it
Christmas music plays 
My grand daughter draws quietly in California cold
Imperfect weather
Lots goes wrong right now
And still.   
There is peace in succumbing to what is
A moment of contentment
Not indifference