YOU WERE NOT BORN TO BE BORING

This will be short. I'm in vacation recovery.
BUT this is what came to me today.

You are not born to be boring.
You were born to become more and more and more exactly who you are.
Individual, unique, sharply defined.

Then you are to take that very specialized self and go do some good with it. (Notice I did not say 'special'. We have to many people feeling waaay too special)

That is the mandate for living an alive life.
Didn't say easy.
Didn't say you are the best anything
Didn't say everyone wants to do this

Sometimes that highly defined self can't get expressed and you will feel the:
Yearning
Calling
Sorrow of ignoring your 'self'
Irritation that makes no sense

You were not born to be boring
An alive life takes courage for sure, but you will know great comfort in being who you are.
Be you.

I'M IN A VACATION STATE OF MIND

I am in week 3-ish of visiting West Coast kids. My husband and I are just old enough for the tables to be turned. The kids take care of us—host us. We live in Mexico for half the year, and people view it as a Margarita kind of vacation. But it isn't. We are householders there with all that entails, but in Spanish!! Water leaking into the fireplace, scorpion to be caught in the book shelf, giant hole in the garden wall, y mucho mas. And of course, living in Maine is the same but with lobsters!

So. I have been so surprised at the vacation state of mind I had forgotten about:

—I read magazines I don't care about and dig deep into a random article. Mmmmm, Perils of Composting. Fascinating.

—I have to ask what day of the week it is. And was surprised to learn it was Monday and time to write. I usually carry the days of the week in my DNA.

—I play with no sense of time or impending task. I enter the time mind of my grandkids which is a stream of pleasure interrupted by boredom or hunger or a little sibling rivalry. For instance my granddaughter and I played Peas Porridge Hot etc in varying styles for half the morning. Queen Elizabeth doing Peas Porridge. Taylor Swift doing Peas Porridge. Olaf doing Peas Porridge. You get the idea. (You do know Olaf, don't you?)

—I retreat when I feel like it and enter into instant 'people I love' contact whenever I get the urge.

—I have no mandatory household task. I see the beauty in my kids' environments. They see the peeling paint

—I'm not in charge of timing or coordinating or any kind of management. (Now for a big laugh. Oh life is so funny. My son just came in and elaaaaaborated on the schedule for the rest of the week. Then my husband came in and they talked about when to go to downtown Santa Cruz for pizza and when kids are at day camp and when and where we will have a night out without kids and when our plane leaves. I left the room and said, "Give me five minutes notice for anything but leave me out of the planning." Wisdom hard won.

Would I want to live in the Vacation State of Mind?? 
I honestly can't answer that question and spent the last 15 minutes wrestling with it.
Would you?

DISPLACED CAN BE A VERY GOOD THING

I, along with my husband, am on a 'grande tour' of out West Coast kids.
Seattle, Portland as in Oregon, and Santa Cruz. Not shabby places to visit.

My so-called kids are all over forty years old. I know that and still it comes as a surprise when I visit them---not when they visit me.  When they visit me, they are my children and I still feel very much in charge even though they help out all of the time.

When I visit their homes, I am suddenly aware of just how fully manifested their adult lives are.  Homes that reflect them, friends that I don't know, clothes I have never seen, and their own domestic culture. I/we 'visit'.  

This used to throw me a little. I did feel displaced as in not integral. And so I cooked and helped with kids and did laundry—still mom-ing. This trip I am relaxing into not being needed and loving it. I am now the mom and grandmother who is cared for and honored. I let others feed me (very well) and 
drive me and I read or play games or take naps or get ready for the next adventure that someone has devised FOR me.

This is a nice new stage in our family life. I could really get used to it
All I have to do is say 'thank you, thank you, thank you'.  Or "could you make me a cup of coffee?"

THE NEW FRONTIER OF THE INVISIBLE

I recently answered a question to me in an interview about what topic excites me. I was surprised at my own answer---The New Frontier of the Invisible.

Each frontier is blossoming on its own territory but when they combine and integrate we will indeed be living a new paradigm or mythos for the world and our lives.

--Physics is a discipline bumping right up against the organizing principle of invisible movement of energy that never hold still creating our reality!

--Thoughts are being validated as the power behind creation and change.
Think differently first. Actions and being follow.

--Spirit is being searched for and experienced differently as religion has at this point in history spoiled the home base for searching

--Biology burgeons with new possibilities of DNA practical research and of stem cells and creating biologically stronger humans 

--Love, invisible except through feelings and actions (both) is being yearned for, 
taught, and viewed as a connection among us sapiens that might save our planet

--The mind is invisible and powerful in many forms for  thought creation, the subconscious power for new  habits, patterns and meaning.

--Prayer continues even as people doubt and wonder about who and how Godness is. There is an energy and source feeling there that works documented miracles.

--Consciousness is a new invisible frontier also of heightened awareness,
source of wisdom and a receptor of guidance.

As I write, I am aware of how these invisible frontiers overlap and how little I
know about them as well as how much they interest me. I have read in these areas for years and my curiosity only grows. I love a good frontier.